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now is the time

Ultimate Horizon
shimmers
now is the time

Ground of All Being
beckons
now is the time

Creator-Christ-Spirit
soothes
now is the time

now is the time.
now is the time.

Inspired by: 2 Corinthians 5:20b—6:10
http://cloakedmonk.com/lenten-haiku-journey/

lent

Be sure and visit the other participants in the Lenten Journey:

Becca Givens at On Dragonfly Wings with Buttercup Tea

Terri at What about God?

Jonathan Stone at Jonathan Stone

Granbee at Granbee

Michael (aka Booguloo) at Michael’s Lair

Chevrefeuille’s Haiku Blog

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Lenten Journey

A few of us are going to do a Lenten discipline of reading scripture and offering a creative response. The below bloggers are joining in the journey.  Please go and read them!  If you want to join the journey, just drop a note into the comments.

The scripture readings are the second tab on this blog or http://cloakedmonk.com/lenten-haiku-journey/.

Featured Bloggers:

Becca Givens at On Dragonfly Wings with Buttercup Tea

Terri at What about God?

Jonathan Stone at Jonathan Stone

Granbee at Granbee

Michael (aka Booguloo) at Michael’s Lair

Chèvrefeuille’s Haiku Blog

Terri at Cloaked Monk

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Join Me in a Lenten Journey

I am going to try to do a Lenten discipline of reading scripture and offering a creative response. The creative response will likely be a short form poem, but who knows! I may get really wild.You are welcome to join the journey. This is not a challenge, but it is a resource to prompt your own journey. If you would like me to list your blog here, I am happy to do so. Just drop a note into the comments.

The scripture readings are the second tab on this blog or  http://cloakedmonk.com/lenten-haiku-journey/ .

Shalom,

Terri

Lent

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How to Enter the Darkness

headlines from the daily crucifixion

five died today
unemployment rises
militants surge
suicide bombers
widow
gay man beaten
  noose faxed 
militia plot
toddler dies
orphan
refinery burns
arsenic infects land
nuclear waste seeps
stranger

Lenten Reflection:

 In the beginning, when God created the heavens and the earth,
 the earth was a formless wasteland, and darkness covered the abyss,
 while a mighty wind swept over the waters.
  
 Then God said,
 ”Let there be light,” and there was light.
 God saw how good the light was.
 God then separated the light from the darkness.
 God called the light “day,” and the darkness he called “night.”
 Thus evening came, and morning followed-the first day.

 -Genesis 1:1-5

Thoughts:

Random thoughts:  The darkness is not bad.  God feels crucified every moment of every day.

Wow.  I have almost no coherent thoughts this morning. 

Satellite View of Earth at Night

Satellite View of Earth at Night, Photo credit: NASA

The light is good.  But just because the light is good doesn’t mean that the dark is bad.  Our imagery of goodness being light and badness being dark has harmed people of color.  There is something harmful to the metaphor of spiritual darkness and lightness.  So what if we welcome the darkness?  Treat it as a gift?  Embrace the dark side.  Scary.  I can hear Darth Vader inviting Luke Skywalker to come to the dark side.

But what is in the darkness?  Darkness allows us to rest.  It allows us to regenerate, heal, prepare for the light.  Paul Bogard writes of the gift of darkness in Let There Be Night: Testimony on Behalf of the Dark.  We actually need darkness.  Can we allow our spiritual side to need darkness?  What does that look like?  Welcoming darkness?

I suppose part of it is living with uncertainty, ambiguity.  I remember spelunking…now there is total, utter, and complete darkness.  It would have been terrifying if I hadn’t had a community of spelunkers with me and the correct tools to see me through the darkness.  In this darkness, walking in circles is a distinct possibility.  Traveling nowhere forward but allowing chaos to reign.  So, I suppose we need to be equipped for the darkness.  And we need to rely on our community.  So that when we do enter the darkness, we can find incredible solace and rest.

Every seed needs darkness to grow.

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Father Forgive Them

Jesus

Photo credit: Christine Valters Paintner of Abbey of the Arts

Lenten Reflection:

So they took Jesus, and, carrying the cross himself, he went out to what is called the Place of the Skull, in Hebrew, Golgotha. There they crucified him, and with him two others, one on either side, with Jesus in the middle.

Pilate also had an inscription written and put on the cross. It read, “Jesus the Nazorean, the King of the Jews.” Now many of the Jews read this inscription, because the place where Jesus was crucified was near the city; and it was written in Hebrew, Latin, and Greek. So the chief priests of the Jews said to Pilate, “Do not write ‘The King of the Jews,’ but that he said, ‘I am the King of the Jews’.” Pilate answered, “What I have written, I have written.”

-John 19:16-22

“Father forgive them, for they know not what they do.”                                        

Pater, dimitte illis, quia nesciunt, quid faciunt.

34ὁ δὲ Ἰησοῦς ἔλεγεν· πάτερ, ἄφες αὐτοῖς, οὐ γὰρ οἴδασιν τί ποιοῦσιν.

-Luke 23:34

 

Thoughts:

Random thought:  Never noticed before that King of the Jews was in Hebrew, Latin, and Greek!

In the Greek, the word for forgive here is ἄφες.  It actually does mean forgive.  However, the interesting thing is the verb tense.  We have past, present, and future verbs.  I forgave, I forgive, I will forgive.  The past tense can called aorist by those grammarians who care about such things.  Well, in Greek, there is such a thing as an aorist imperative.  An imperative is a command.  Go!  Teach!  Forgive!  This word, ἄφες, is in the form of an aorist imperative.  Well, that just made my head hurt.  It turns out, one of the many, many quirks of Greek is that an aorist imperative means what they call “punctilliar action.”  Action that is just beginning but not complete.  Jesus is asking God to begin the action of forgiveness.  The work of forgiving is not a completed action. It is something that is just begun.  What does that do to our understanding of forgiveness?  To hold the idea that forgiving is a continuous action?  That it is something we must continue to do?  Even God has to continue to forgive? 

That is something to tuck away and think about.

It is harder to grasp this idea of “they know not what they do.”  Here, it is clear that Jesus is saying that they do not realize that they are killing the messiah.  They don’t know.  This is an incredibly gracious stance from someone in the midst of crucifixion.  Jesus is giving humanity the benefit-of-the-doubt.  I am afraid that I would not be so gracious in the midst of my suffering.  What would it mean to our life if we started from a stance of “not knowing” rather than a stance of accusation?

When I was a chaplain in the detention center, my heart often raged at the stories the youth would tell me.  One time, I was sitting with a youth and we were playing cards.  I asked him what he wanted to do when he got out…where did he want to go.  He told me that he was going to live with his mother.  I asked again, “where do you want to go?”  He then told me that he wanted to go home to a normal family with normal parents.  His mother, was a crack addict.  Living with her, he was certain he would end up doing drugs again and coming back.  After all, when your mom asks you to do drugs with her, what can you do?  What about his dad?  Worse.  He runs drugs from Mexico and is a leader in the gang.  It is not safe to be with his father. 

For a moment, I took in all of this confessed to me during a casual game of cards.  I continued playing and chatting pretending everything was normal.  In the meantime, my internal dialogue was reeling with anger, sadness, and rage.

  • what hope does this young man have?
  • statistically, with a dad in and out of prison, a dad doing drugs, a dad in a gang, a mother doing drugs, a mother in and out of jail, a poor education, and a justice system that could care less about doing justice…this young man will be dead or in prison by the time he is 40.
  • what hope is there?
  • how can his parents abandon this young man in all the ways that are important?
  • how can we, society, sit by and let children be thrown away?
  • how can God create a system where there is hopelessness?

Needless to say, I had a few emotions and thoughts to work through that evening.  It was like a poison in my system.  Thank God for contemplative practices.  I meditated and cried and typed and came to a new understanding of hope and forgiveness.

Our hope is coming and it is prefigured in this gracious and extravagant request to begin to forgive.

Just as, this young man’s parents did not know, as society does not know, the soldiers gambling over Jesus’ clothes did not know, the civic and religious leaders that called for Jesus’ crucifixion, did not know.  In fact, we rarely can know the full and complete consequences of our choices.  We simply do not know.  How different would our lives be if we assume an unknowing rather than a malevolence?  If we start from grace rather than accusation?  If we truly rely on Jesus as our guide?

34ὁ δὲ Ἰησοῦς ἔλεγεν· πάτερ, ἄφες αὐτοῖς, οὐ γὰρ οἴδασιν τί ποιοῦσιν.

“then Jesus said, Father start forgiving them, for they do not know what they do.”

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Simplicity in Radical Responses

Lenten Reflection:

Mary said, “Behold, I am the handmaid of the Lord.
May it be done to me according to your word.”
Then the angel departed from her.
-From Luke 1:26-38

Response

Back in the day when I first started the ordination process, we looked at stories of call and response in the Bible.  Where has God called out and how have people responded.  There is, of course, the burning bush and Moses, Eli and Samuel and the “dream,” Jeremiah, David, and on and on.  God calls, people respond.  But my favorite story is that of Mary.  How fully trusting she was.  Dumped with this incredible tale by a fearsome angel, her response is, “I am a servant of the Lord.”  No ego.  No attachment to life as it is.  Just simple, radical response.

I wonder what the world would be like if we all responded with a simple radical response?

Lately, I have found youtube.com to be a helpful meditative tool.  Of course I was able to find a simply divine meditation on the annunciation.  Initially, I went there looking for Marty Haugen’s version of the annunciation and magnificat which is wonderful (from Holden Evening Prayer).  But I found this instead.  Well worth the 5ish minutes.  Listen.  What is being requested?  What will your response be?

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Pecking Order

pecking order
dedicated to healthcare in America

there was this bird
peck peck pecking at
my window
driving me bananas
but amusing my cat.
soon i just ignored
him
and gave him nary
a thought as i continued
my daily chores.

why was that bird
peck peck pecking and
so determined
to come into my house
that i guard fervently
from all intruders?
could the poor
thing
have wanted the
food that we cast
as crumbs off the
table to the dogs?

perhaps that bird
peck peck pecking
wanted simply to be
on the inside.
with access to a
world rich in
his
imagination where
dog and cat and
lizard and human
loved and cared
for one another.

© 2010, Terri Stewart

Lenten Reflection, Week Six, Day Two:

From Mount Hor the children of Israel set out on the Red Sea road,
to bypass the land of Edom.
But with their patience worn out by the journey,
the people complained against God and Moses,
“Why have you brought us up from Egypt to die in this desert,
where there is no food or water?

-Numbers 21:4-5

Thoughts:

Today, my thoughts inevitably turn to the healthcare debate that is now just beginning even though the bill passed.  My thoughts are simple.  I can hear the 40 million people in the United States without healthcare coverage saying, “Why have you brought us to the land of promise to die where there is no access to healthcare?” 

God provided for the children of Israel.  God did not say, “well, get a job and earn money so you can have food.”  Carried to the extreme, this story becomes one of socialism where food and water is shared with everyone regardless of their ability to provide compensation for the food and water.  Perish the thought!   God is a socialist.  I am surely going to hell for that thought.

I have to say, that our patience is worn out from the journey.  It is time that all people have healthcare.  They were not created and nurtured and loved by God simply to be abandoned in Death Valley.

Pink is used to indicate inappropriate use of sarcasm or humor.  =)

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Pas de Deux

pas de deux

what are you
going to do with your weeping
sitting there looking out
a window wondering
where the world has
gone?

rage against humanity (or)
brush aside the pain (or)
work ceaselessly (or)
cry eternally?

death is in the
anger
ignorance
exhaustion
wails.

what are you
going to become when
rage and ignorance and
exhaustion and wails
will not heal the
broken?

listen to the detestable (or)
ease the miserable (or)
work as enabled (or)
love incessantly?

life is in the
voice
charity
nurtured
loved.

© 2010, Terri Stewart

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God of the compost II

in the desert

in the desert
death comes
during the
fullness of
day
when we
would think
we are
safe

© 2010 Terri Stewart

Lenten Reflection Week 5, Day 2:

The angel brought me, Ezekiel,
back to the entrance of the temple of the LORD,
and I saw water flowing out
from beneath the threshold of the temple toward the east,
for the façade of the temple was toward the east;
the water flowed down from the right side of the temple,
south of the altar.
Then he brought me to the bank of the river, where he had me sit.
Along the bank of the river I saw very many trees on both sides.
He said to me,
“This water flows into the eastern district down upon the Arabah,
and empties into the sea, the salt waters, which it makes fresh.
Wherever the river flows,
every sort of living creature that can multiply shall live,
and there shall be abundant fish,
for wherever this water comes the sea shall be made fresh.
Along both banks of the river, fruit trees of every kind shall grow;
their leaves shall not fade, nor their fruit fail.
Every month they shall bear fresh fruit,
for they shall be watered by the flow from the sanctuary.
Their fruit shall serve for food, and their leaves for medicine.”

-Ezekiel 47:1-9, 12

Thoughts

My favorite number is 4.  I think it is because of musical meter, 4/4  being the most common time signature.  Maybe it is from the perfect amount of people to play pinochle, I don’t know.  It one of the sillier things about me that I actually have a favorite number.  Somehow, though, it aligns with East, South, West, North.  Spring, Summer, Fall, Winter.  Dawn, Day, Evening, Night.  Birth, youth, adult, crone. 

Yesterday, the song, “Shout to the North,” kept running through my head.  There is a line, “rise up church with broken wings” which is calling mightily to me as I struggle with the church’s historical stances on abhorrent issues such as slavery.  And their current stance on issues such as full inclusion for GLBTQ.  Yes, the church has broken wings.  I’m not sure how much rising up it can do, but the people in the church can certainly rise up and lift the broken wings.  They can rise up and help heal the church.  It is in our American society that we throw away things that are broken rather than take the time to heal and repair.  We do not see things through their entire life-cycle.  We are uncomfortable with brokenness. 

I think there is hope as we move towards being a society of recyclers and composters.  Perhaps we will finally be able to see that there is a continuity in life.  From birth to life to death to life beyond death.  We may deny it, but eventually our bodies in death, become compost for the ground and bring life beyond death.  Perhaps with this movement towards composting and recycling, we will move beyond a society of death-fearers/death-worshipers and embrace life in its many beautiful forms.

Regarding the scripture and its promise for eternal summer, perhaps this is the promise we have needed when we are in the winter.  It is difficult, but we must find the promise in all the seasons or we become idolaters focused only on the fullness and unable to see the beauty of the desert.

It seems to becoming a theme, but, I wonder what would happen if we stay awake to God in the winter?  In the barren desert?  In our crones?  In the persecution?  In the suffering?  In the frozen tundra?  I wonder what new bits of growth and movement we could detect if we opened ourselves up enough to the rugged, frightening, beauty?

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Theotokos, Logotokos, Pneumatokas

The Communion Cup and Bread

Holy Cup

 

holy cup
filled with
cosmos
reflecting sin
less
days and nights
all creation
forming as
bread
is exchanged

Lenten Reflection Week 4, Day 6

“Come, let us return to the LORD,
it is God who has rent, but God will heal us;
God has struck us, but God will bind our wounds.
God will revive us after two days;
on the third day God will raise us up,
to live in God’s presence.
Let us know, let us strive to know the LORD;
as certain as the dawn is God’s coming,
and God’s judgment shines forth like the light of day!
God will come to us like the rain,
like spring rain that waters the earth.”
-Hosea 6:1-3

Thoughts

I’m not sure my thoughts today have anything at all to do with the Hosea reading, but there are seeds that got launched.

Theotokos:  Bearer of God

This is often the name used for Mary.  Mother of God.  She gave birth to God.  Or so the orthodox Christology would have it. But maybe the orthodox had the right idea while missing the mark. 

Logotokos:  Bearer of the Word

Pneumatotokas:  Bearer of Spirit

Okay, I totally made up the last two, but if we think of our job as Christians as being the bearers of the metaphorical mystery of the trinity, it is easy to see how Mary became who she became in Christian myth.  How could mere mortals, people who tend towards sin again and again, be the bearer of God?  Clearly, the bearer of God cannot be a sinful human, therefore, Mary must have been without sin.*  It isn’t hard to understand how this idea came about after Jesus was deified.

But guess what?  We are all bearers of God.  We are equally beloved children of God.  Parents will know that when you have children, your heart expands to include every child equally.  They are all beloved and cherished.  Each has their own talents and gifts.  And some are much easier to live with!  But each is beloved.  And each child of God is a bearer of God.

So the right idea is that Mary is a bearer of God, but missing the mark is the idea that Mary is the only bearer of God.  So, if this argument is true, that we are each bearers of God, how can we stand idly by and let our brother or sister fail?  Or even let our brother or sister have stumbling blocks thrown in front of them?  Or even stand there and trip them ourselves as they walk by?  It is so hard to be the bearer of God 24/7.  To treat each other and creation with belovedness.  I don’t know about you, but I get tired.  When I get tired I get cranky.  Okay, maybe I just get cranky.  When I am cranky, seeing the God bearer in the other is difficult.  Treating them as beloved is even more challenging.  But that is our call.  To live in the presence of God in each of us as Theotokos.

* Pink font denotes occasional use of inappropriate humor.

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